Reviews

When I started really evolving into my little space, I had the desire for pacis. I, just like everyone else, purchased a newborn sized one. They’re extra small, easy to hide and I just wanted to see if I liked it. It was embarrassing to want to try a pacifier. What if my boyfriend found out? What if someone saw me? What if someone said something to me. So I tucked it away inside of my shopping bag after buying it, rushed home and fell in love with the safe feeling I had once I popped it into my mouth. I felt small, vulnerable, adorable and just…calm.

For the most part, I kept this little secret of mine hidden, tucked away in my sock drawer in a lonely, dark corner. I was living with someone – my other half who knew I was a little, and I was still super embarrassed. He was okay with and knew what I was into, but I could never bring myself to actually use a paci in front of him! It was just… mortifying!

Eventually, though, I began to take it out at night and started sleeping with it. And sleeping at night turned into him seeing it, into me being more open and then me purchasing my first adult paci! I fell in love immediately with that paci, kept it on me in the house at all times, always in the mouth! That was around the time I first started seeing deco pacis in my Tumblr and Instagram feed. While I thought the deco pacis were absolutely adorable, I couldn’t understand it. Why would anyone want to have a pacifier decorated in gems and stuff? Sure they were cute, but what was the point? I couldn’t fall for any of the ones I kept seeing and despite me slowly growing to want one, I just couldn’t find the one that was right for me. 

Then, I ran into the first deco-paci I ever purchased, my Ghost Pup paci from Zuria Batzy Creations.